1986 SMALL BOOK 25 pages
page 14
… I’m writing how much participle “because” I used for it, because I have to be eternal. My father asks why? Because I have to take k. back from kindergarden, because I have to do this, because I have to do that.
Conversations about good – good that father goes to the church on a meeting, while coming back, he enters the shop. Buys us a bread, milk out there for everyone, who wants it, half of a bread and cream.
Father goes somewhere, mother is walking here and there in the toilet.
I’m sitting in front of the canvas, I’m painting a copy of “Boar Hunting”, from very bad reproduction. I’m thinking about doing this Sunrise, which I’ve seen in the morning, unfortunately it is too late, I’m looking at the sky – it is not orange anymore, but in white-yellow colour, blinding colour of azure – it is nice too, but not the same as some time ago. I’m thinking about copying the nature. I’m coming back to my room, which is upstairs and painting the dead nature of flowers, which are present, they live but soon they will be dead, gone. Then I paint the copy again, I’m painting it with stages, first stage, then coloured drawing ….